unstable bob gable
04-18-2012, 01:24 AM
Well, Doods and Doodettes, figured ubg would fire off a line or 3 while another sleepless night looms ahead...gotta take the wife in for chemo in the morning and I tend to get panic attacks with this looming, but if I take anything to sleep I'm screwed when it comes to getting up. And since I quit drinking I can't use that as a deadener. So, figured I'd write a bit...
Quick story: wife got stage 4 ovarian cancer over a year ago, at one point I was told she had less than a week to live. Well, a miracle happened, and she made it past that. After tons of chemo and wasting away to 1/2 of her former self, she was almost starting on the up and up, but then cancer was found in her lymph noids. So, now it's back to more chemo, more wasting away, and more horror story. Botom line: she's probably not going to make it through this again.
In the mean time, I've seen people's true colors, and have seen people I thought would have my back disappear faster than beer at an NJFBOA meet. Family has turned out to be a big "F" word. I've had people I barely know help me out, and her family hasn't shown me a dime, a meal, or even some uplifting phone calls. And by no means are they hurting for anything. And my own family hasn't been much better. My house is in foreclosure, and I had to shoot the few $ I had back in January to put an engine in my beater. Nothing like starting the new year with your timing chain tensioner fragging and eating a few crank bearings. Luckily I'm a good schmoozer and have been able to keep oil in the house and keep the lights on. But it gets old having a borrow a 20 spot from a guy at work on Monday so I can put gas in the car until payday.
Mentally I only keep trucking by the grace of God. A lot of times the only thing that gets me out of bed is knowing I have to go to work to get paid and keep my benefits going to pay the doc bills. I've had mega bouts with alcohol abuse and depression, and believe me, I still want to crawl inside a bottle most days. I had a good run with working out and lost over 75 lbs over the past few years, but I haven't been to the gym in weeks now. And I hate not working out. But my mind isn't there...
So, all I have to say to anyone who wants to listen is this: plan for those rainy days, as they WILL come! Don't blow your load on that blower or new hot rod engine unless you have that amount of money DOUBLED or more in the bank.
And get checked out if something ain't kosher with your health/body.
I still like seeing cool cars and bikes, but there is sooo much more to life than machines. I still have my Javelin, but it is going up on the block real soon. I know I'm gonna get raped $$$ wise, but when ya got nothing ya gotta do what ya gotta do.
Welp that's it. Maybe I'll see some of you around town. I don't do the WWW much anymore. But if anyone wants to holla at me, e mail is
captainnicenj@yahoo.com
Cell is 732.816.5445
Best to all,
unstable bob gable
Quick story: wife got stage 4 ovarian cancer over a year ago, at one point I was told she had less than a week to live. Well, a miracle happened, and she made it past that. After tons of chemo and wasting away to 1/2 of her former self, she was almost starting on the up and up, but then cancer was found in her lymph noids. So, now it's back to more chemo, more wasting away, and more horror story. Botom line: she's probably not going to make it through this again.
In the mean time, I've seen people's true colors, and have seen people I thought would have my back disappear faster than beer at an NJFBOA meet. Family has turned out to be a big "F" word. I've had people I barely know help me out, and her family hasn't shown me a dime, a meal, or even some uplifting phone calls. And by no means are they hurting for anything. And my own family hasn't been much better. My house is in foreclosure, and I had to shoot the few $ I had back in January to put an engine in my beater. Nothing like starting the new year with your timing chain tensioner fragging and eating a few crank bearings. Luckily I'm a good schmoozer and have been able to keep oil in the house and keep the lights on. But it gets old having a borrow a 20 spot from a guy at work on Monday so I can put gas in the car until payday.
Mentally I only keep trucking by the grace of God. A lot of times the only thing that gets me out of bed is knowing I have to go to work to get paid and keep my benefits going to pay the doc bills. I've had mega bouts with alcohol abuse and depression, and believe me, I still want to crawl inside a bottle most days. I had a good run with working out and lost over 75 lbs over the past few years, but I haven't been to the gym in weeks now. And I hate not working out. But my mind isn't there...
So, all I have to say to anyone who wants to listen is this: plan for those rainy days, as they WILL come! Don't blow your load on that blower or new hot rod engine unless you have that amount of money DOUBLED or more in the bank.
And get checked out if something ain't kosher with your health/body.
I still like seeing cool cars and bikes, but there is sooo much more to life than machines. I still have my Javelin, but it is going up on the block real soon. I know I'm gonna get raped $$$ wise, but when ya got nothing ya gotta do what ya gotta do.
Welp that's it. Maybe I'll see some of you around town. I don't do the WWW much anymore. But if anyone wants to holla at me, e mail is
captainnicenj@yahoo.com
Cell is 732.816.5445
Best to all,
unstable bob gable