[Firebird67dude]

I went to her wake today. It hit me about 10 mins i was there. Lost it. Toughened up tho. I talked to her mom. She said she doesnt know what she'd do with out me. She said she wants me to read the note at the funeral tomorrow. I dont think i can. She said that im in it. I bursted out crying after that. I feel worse than i dint Friday morning. I realized to day standing there in the funeral home that I am the last person she called. That makes me absolutely horrified to read that note tomorrow. I'm going to tho. I need to man up and do it for her mom. I kno i need to do it but i dont think im strong enough. I guess this is one of those things that someone just has to do no matter what. Wosrt part about today was the closed casket. Made it so much worse. I dont know. Felt like letting some of it out. Wanna talk to me IM me but dont call cuz i will only talk to certain people.


Thanks,
Tim