Sorry to hear

. My mom had to put one of our cats down just about a month ago. Same thing had happened, she dwindled down to only about 5 lbs. It's so sad to lose a friend, but as hard as it is, the love they give you cannot be outweighed by the sadness. I know I will always have cats, my two currently are a couple of young clowns and I dread the day, probably 15+ years down the road that I will have to do that. Its ok to be a grown man crying, she meant the world to you.