[skorpion317]

i have a livejournal account, so I took some time to write down what had happened and how I felt. the link was in my AIM profile. she looked at it, and this was the comment she left (she didn't put her name down, but it was too obvious that it was her anyway):

"Sorry to add to your hell but I must say that I cannot help but laugh after reading your pitiful assessment of your tragic hell. From knowing both sides of the story, you can't try to glorify yourself that you have done nothing wrong! 1) Her current "hook-up" is really her current boyfriend, who may I add makes her extremely happy. I know it's hard but if you truly care about someone you want to see them happy no matter what the circumstances may see fit. But no, you seem to think that just because you have a history you are better for her so you walz back trying to reclaim what you think is yours, but you can't take friendship into consideration. Showing up at her work, the constant phone calls and I love you... BULL!!!!!!!!!!!2) If I'm not mistaken I believe there was another girl trying to come between you and your ex while you were still going out with her- and you let her in the picture... tossing your now ex g/f out the window like yesterday's trash... I hate to break it to you but you're not the victim here. 3) after all is said in done you still wonder why things arent going in your favor, well lets recap 1 and 2 and we come to the conclusion that you never realized what an amazing person you had til she was gone! And now because of your selfish acts, you will always wonder about what could've been! Have a nice life! =)"

to which i replied:

"I never said I didn't do anything wrong. I realized my mistakes, and I tried to make it up.

But you don't care. You only wanted to make me feel as bad as you did. And I can see that now.

You don't seem so "amazing" to me now, after I realize how little you care about me. You're also a coward, you couldn't even put your own name down because you're too embarassed by the way you acted, XXXX."

i called her out by name on my journal, but i won't put her name here, hence the XXXX.

I then added a new entry to my journal:

"I didn't think it could get any worse. And yet it has.

I was lied to. My ex never cared about how I felt. She only wanted to see me suffer for the way I behaved 5 months ago. I was already sorry for what I had done, but apparently she thought that wasn't enough.

She has become one of the most selfish and immature people I have ever met. I wonder why I didn't see that before. And because she has turned into this person, I realize I was wrong to have tried to make it up to her. She is no better than I was 5 months ago. Someone who treated me this way doesn't deserve my love and affection. Someone who treated me this way doesn't even deserve my friendship."

I also IM'ed her, saying most of the stuff that appears in that entry. i told her until she grows up and apologizes to me, we cannot be friends. She will see those IM's when she gets back from cheerleading practice (which should be in a half-hour or so) and I am sure she will be itchin for a fight. I'll let everyone know how it turns out.