It won't be the last girl you lose. Buck up.

Hang in there, kiddo!

I got an offer to go back to work, Im not sure If I will or not, I probably will..

Sorry to hear that things have been rough man....

First off, if some girl won't go out with you because of a person you dated previously, then she isn't worth your time.

Secondly, I think you should take their offer to go back to work....the income is nice, and it will keep you busy.

- Justin

yeah Ill go back next friday, I was just frustrated.. plus the fact that I make more money an hour then all the seniors in my law class is great! and I only have 4 more weeks till they close down.

So, ive been talking to a kid on my bus, aparently devines pharmacy highers 15 y/o's and needs some people, Im gonna go aply in a week or two.

I turned down being freinds with benifits with a chick, today and realized I need my g/f we are now going out..if she doesnt change im leaving her for good....

My grandma was mooved to a hospi something..in edison(by menlomall) so real close to us, my mom told me, she probably wont go home, wont go better, and Im lucky I had a real nice talk with her when I saw her, Im crying right now because, i forgot to tell her I love her, and she will probably never understand what it means again

1. dont wait a week or to to apply, the jobs will fill up
2. she wont change, and if she does call the guiness book of records.
3. she will ALWAYS know you love her, that should be the least of your worries concerning your gma...


btw, im not always a prick

I know she knew I loved her, but im not even sure that she knows who her own kids are let alone grand kids, let alone me who she saw once or twice a year...

I reaaly need some one to talk to now..

We cleaned the whole house expecting everyone to come over around 3..

the doc said, it looks like she wont be able to make it through the week end..

so every one is spending time with one another at the hospi something..


My aunt told everyone not to see her if you dont want to, and to remember her from the last time we saw her, so I had a pretty good conversation with her then, so im not gonna go...

I realized one thing from this, you only live once, why not have fun and live it up now!!!?

my grandma died

SHARE IN THE JOY THAT YOU GOT TO KNOW HER AND ALWAYS THINK OF HER AS IN GOOD TIMES --- JZ

Matt, I'm sorry for your loss. My condolences to you and your family.

Just remember that death is a part of life, and remember all of the good times you had. Celebrate her life.

Be glad you got to talk with her one last time. Many of us did not have that luxury when a loved one died.

Indeed. Well put.

i know that but I still feel like she was taken from us, she was in the hospital, on medication, she shouldnt of had another stroke, or atleast one that would eventually make her lifeless and then die from it..

Matt, sorry to hear about your grandmother. Hang in there, these things happen and they will happen again. The first direct relative you lose is the toughest one.

I know no one cares but still,

Today was the LONGEST, TOUGHEST, Yet the most happiest day of my life.

The day started with me waking up at 7, seeing my mom out side talking to her, not making out the words because I was half asleep.. I looked for the "ironed" shirt, all over the house couldnt find it, (was locked in moms office)then I reluctently put on the shirt I was saposed to wear tomorow.

Got ready,bla bla bla, went to my aunts, on the way there stopped at gas station for my sisters cigarettes, she smoked 4-5 on the way there. LESS THEN AN HOUR!! woah..

got there, and the mood was normalish, of coarse everyone was sad, but under the circumstance everyone was there selfs. I met my dads brother, my uncle mark, for the first time in my life(ive met him before, but not at an age i could talk,walk let alone remember). ate lunch, road to the funeral home with my cousin and her bf.

got to the funeral home, EVERYONE stood out side IN FRONT OF THE NO SMOKING SIGN and smoked.. And we saw a butterfly(this will come into play later) they finish smoking and we head inside, all of my aunts and uncles(excluding my "dad") go up first, then some one wanted to go up with me, i didnt go. my aunts cried and laughed(dont know why laughed) then my cousin went up and cried, cam right back upset saying it didnt even look like her. then everyone else went up besides for my cousin bobby, he broke down, bad, with out her he probably wouldnt be alive today, no matter what he did she was always there. he eventually got used to it and went up.

we then saw a dvd, of pictures, and cried alot, and i mean ALOT, their was one picture that was just her, it was of her behind a couch half of her face sticking up with a pink curler in her hair. their was one of her feeding me a bottle as a baby with my cousin nick next to us.

I realized after we calmed down the prayer card was a butterfly, their where fake butterflys on the coffin and pictures of them around her. their is no doubt in my mind that the butterfly we saw before we went in was a sign from her!

her freinds came and a few other non imediate family members came. we went back to the house because the visiting hours wher over. ate dinner went back, I met alot of cousins i didnt know I had, and found out my oldest cousin is 60 years old!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we then went back to the funeral home again it was a pact house so for an hour and a half i sat out side talking to my cousins wife, about everything and felt a bond with her now.

im leaving out lots of details for time...

and I turned down being a paul berrer because I was scared to, and then I went up to the coughin and i felt something over me, and i told my aunt ill do it if they still need it.

I just hope this brings me closer to everyone! and my dad even closer to his brother and sisters..